Answers!
So, I attended church today. We had a bible study and it was actually not all that interesting of a topic. It was about health and living a healthy life, spirituality included. Somewhere in this discussion about spiritual health it was mentioned that we stay healthy when we keep our connection to God healthy. This can be done through conversation with God, but this conversation should, of course, not be monologue from either part. But how does God answer? It’s a very interesting question and many people must have asked this questions through time. I, for one, has been asking myself this questions many times. In the church today, when this questions was given, silence occurred for a little while. Then, a cautious voice answered: “We have to listen to our hearts”. God is in our hearts, he wants us to invite him to live in our hearts. Thats also what I was taught as a kid.
Silence as answer to a question can have different reasons. One can be shy and do not want to answer. You can be lost in other thoughts, not following the discussion. You can be without an answer not knowing it. And there is also the possibility that you think you might have the answer, but you are unsure if that really is an accepted answer in this gathered group of people. Observing this present group at the bible study, I think most had not an answer or was unsure how their particular answer would be received.
Listening to the heart. What this is, could be explained in a more human logic way( i assume, i’m no scientist), that it is our subconcious mind that speaks to us. Or, that our intuition is simply telling us to, based on previous experience that we do not remember, but we do know subconsciously. But how would this answer the question on what is the truth about this subject?
God can as well speak to us from external sources, from not ourselves. Say, an action happening not caused directly or indirectly by us, but what happens somehow includes us. But how would I know if this is really something that God did or it is just a random incident? I could ask God, listen to the answer. Now I’m back to status quo.
The bible says that Jesus is the truth. A simple man could say he knows the truth, and that the truth is not Jesus. Another one could say something different. But if I for myself should decide, I would have to go through the arguments, do some experiments to test the arguments then make up my mind. This is the frustrating part. I try Jesus, I have been praying all my life. My connection strength with God has been varying, right now I am doubting if it has been there. I want it to. I keep praying. But I don’t see that personal connection that supposedly should be there.
Can a man believe in a wrong way? Is it possible for a man to think he believe but really, he doesn’t? The tendency is to think more logical ways, the human way of reason, attempting to answer everything by itself, relating to past experiences. I dislike it, but I can’t overcome it. Thus, I don’t like where I am headed!
Reading this through I get this idea that the answer is in the bible. Would this just be my intuition telling me this, given my christian childhood with christian teachings and attending church every week? Or, is this supernatural?